went vivo juz now with my mum n sis..we bus-ed there n mrt-ed back..there is a lot of ppl there sia..i dun like..i hate crowds..anyway bought a shirt..n till now i havent bought a bottom which i love sia.

anyway heard some news frm cheryl..dun b sad gurl..i love u ok..haha.

n also i feel dam bad sia..since holis start..e grp discussion for proj section..i cant go..the 1st 1 is bcoz of the CO prac..n tml there is another discussion..haiz i dun tink shld miss it..tink i will b goin for the gathering for a while..juz go there see my dear GR mates..then go sch meet for proj..then also i tml got a lot of things need to do..go for appointment..gr gathering..proj discussion..then co prac..a tired day for me..wish me gd luck.

i feel so sian-ed sia..haiz.

save me

it was dark
i could not see anything
but i can hear some noise
i know there are people around
i tried calling for help
but no one came to me
its like they could not hear me
or they choose to ignore me
i feel so helpless
i was left alone at a corner
leaving to rot alone
im like a tiny ant
with no one bother me.

help me.

went to changi airport there to do the RHT project..went to ask ppl to do the survey..i tink veri paiseh loh..sometimes muz worry whether the ppl will beat us up or nt..if not worry if we r approached by the staff..but at least we manage to finish our work..haha..then took the photos with my cam..oh ya my dad gave me his cam..i also duno why..haha.

the gals went off..they all meeting their frens..n i got no 'date'..so sad sia..i depress my way back home..haha..any1 i wan watch shrek3..who can pei me go..im so lonely sia.=(

YAY!! test finish le..haha..my RHT is so screwed lah..i was like not feeling well loh..sian sia.

anyway 2dae after test we all went crazy le..haha..first went silas hse n slack loh..haha..after that shirley went back sch to find bk n meet her fren..then left with silas raphael cindy n me..we went citilink there..walk walk shop shop then we went town.

oh ya that time on train so paiseh lah..me n cindy was like doin somethin then we almost forget to alight lah..haha..then we goin walk walk shop shop play play..went to the lucky plaza the acrade there to play n we earned a lot of tickets sia..but specifically is raphael who earned the most..haha..then we changed for some toothbush shape erasers..sweets lollipops..haha..so fun..then we go play pool also..haha..but due to the construction there lah..got a strong smell of the glue..so we went off early..anyway when the guys are playin pool..me n cindy took a lot of weird funny stupid photos loh..haha.

after that we go sit at the foodcourt there to rest..after that wait for the movie to start..watch the men in white (gui ah gui ah)..it was funny for some parts if not the show is quite stupid lah..haha..2dae took a lot of photos with cindy sia..n all this photos r frm cindy. thnx Cindy!!=))

1st day of tests wk..mircoecons paper was bad..the paper itself wasnt too difficult i feel..but i dun haf time to finish leh..so sad sai..6 marks didnt do at all..wadeva..shall nt tok bout it.

anyway after the paper..studied OB in school..n it was--bad--..i cant concentrate at all..back home n study..still nothing can get in..tink im so dead now..n im still here blogging..haiz..pray hard that later i could start getting my things in.

i haf the sudden urge to get into the pool sia..swimming pool..veri long didnt go for it le..haha..oops..so random sia.

ohyea..i getting more scared of (s-1) sia..he made me feel scared..better dun get near him.

tml start exams then after the 3 days..it will b holidays le..time passes dam fast sia.

anyway studied mircoecons le..but a lot things still dun understand sia..muz work harder le..i quite scared and dun like of exams sia..haha..like who nt.

gd luck to every1 for the coming mid-semster tests..all the best!!



i am happy the way i am.
i shld be happy the way i am.
i will be happy the way i am.
i may be happy the way i am.
i am not happy the way i am.

Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of papercranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualise any future for the both of them, so let's go their own ways there and then... heartbroken, the guy agreed.
When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all these hardwork and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company...
"You never fail until you stop trying." he always told himself. "I must make it in life!"One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realise those were his ex-girlfriend's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore, he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life!
Before the guy can realise, the couple was walking towards a cemetary,and he got out of his car and followed them...and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone... and he saw his precious papercranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle ... therefore she had chosen to leave him.
She had wanted her parents to put his papercranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just wept ...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.

Tragic Love Story

omg..this is so dam sad..shld reallie treasure ur love ones..coz u will never know when they will leave us for good or even bad..i quite like the story though its veri sadden-ing.

having headache now.

this morning went to tampines there to meet brandon cindy n silas to study..we studied at the mac there..i feel that 2dae was quite effective leh..it wasnt too noisy n i studied 2 chaps of OB n 1 chap on mircoecons..quite deep into it for that 3hrs so so..then brandon went off 1st..after that i also left early.

anyway tink i too long didnt reallie study veri hard le..now i tink im forcing too many things into my brain..until now im having headache..so now tryin to rest 1st..later then continue study again..im so guai rite..haha.

oh ya i tml got 1 event in the evening leh..duno shld i go or not leh..hmm....

i haf finally completed 2 major things for this wk. i submitted the bcs excel project n also completed the quiz..i feel a great sense of achievement..haha.

anyway 2dae quite a lot of ppl veri kanjiong bout the BCS..n its making a lot of ppl veri stress sia..then library n lab quite many ppl..n when hand in the proj le..a lot ppl relief liao..haha..oh ya..did my OB quiz le..got 16/20..not bad lah..haha..thnx to raphael..haha..then also 2dae durin intht tut..teacher went thru the class test..but didnt tell us our score..sian sia..i tink most likely fail sia..haiz.

oh ya..i made a star using straws..n i can wear it as a ring siao..so cute..haha.

i dont belong there

i feel so uncomfortable with it.

finallie completed my bcs excel proj le..woosh..so tiring lah this thing..made me so fustrated also.
wadeva.

anyway 2dae went shoppin with my mother n sis..haha..went simei there 1st then went paya leba there..at 1st i intent to buy bottoms onli..but in the end i bought 2 tops n a bottom..sian loh..i wanted to haf bottoms sia..but i end up buyin more tops..haiz..anyway i havent touch org beh yet..still need to do quiz..so sian-ed.

ur tag says:
made in heaven - coz u r an angel
only handwash - coz u r fragile
cold-iron - we dun wanna burn ur wing
& handle with care - coz u r a limited edition.

this is so sweet rite..haha.

i really seriously feeling so dam bad mood recently..of course i didnt show out..but its like i always had the feeling that im so xtra or left out in the grp..i tink is because of the fear again..everything also very not in the right state..in another words..everything is wrong..very wrong..everything!

projects-individual n grp..exams..everything everything wrong wrong wrong..haiz..i really duno wat to do now..some pathetic gurl here now need a lot n alot of help.

i feeling so dam sian-ed now.

haiz..e bcs totally duno wat to do..n its due this fri..then i duno how to start.
then exams coming..all e subj i still dun reallie understand..n for revision i also duno how to start.
haiz haiz haiz.

took frm cindy's blog.

anyway this afternoon i was dam surprised n happy..meixuan asked me out..haha..along with anyu..haha..we went to katong there..went to pool again i know..at there saw alex cai n alvin sia..so qiao..haha..after play a while then we went to orchard there wanted to watch movie..but its full lah..so in the end didnt watch..we took neoprints..its like so long since i last took neoprints..haha..after that we went walk walk..then go home liao.

oh ya..juz now i took bus that time..is like so scary lah..there is 1 man at the eunos bus stop..like got a big prob..keep shouting..cant reallie heard wat he shouting..then after that bus came..he took the bus too..then on bus he is still shouting..n its veri loud..shouted something lah.."wooh...wooh...die die...wan go die.."..something liddat..veri scary loh..then still knock the window..n etc.

juz reach home..im so dam tired sia..went vivo juz now with cindy raphael silas shirley n her bf..after that edwin joined us..intend to do shopping one..but there doesnt seem to be having any great sales n some of us got sian-ed..in e end..shou huo nt a lot..i didnt buy anything.

after that we went to play pool..n im still as sucky as usual..sian loh..so sry that i lost.=(..after we took grp photo by using self-timer lah..so funnie loh..haha..after that we went the outside there to sit...chat n play..then frm there i become high..due to the lame jokes..haha..after that went home le..on train edwin ask me bout the link thing n i still duno lah..argggghh..sad sia..i will solve it one day..haha.

oh ya..silas when walk into the shops that time..the scanner will ring loh..dam paiseh sia..n also funnie..haha..we tried to find out is which thing which trigger the alarm..in the end is his shoes..haha..after its scanned..then ok le..haha.

will they kill me?

oh and also i didnt get in the ig thing loh..so sad sia.=(

juz finish watchin the re qing zhong xia (summer x summer) epi 11..wah dam nice sia..the front part is like so touching..then also romantic..n also veri sweet..i like this epi the most sia out of the whole drama. so sad sia..nxt wk is the last epi loh..the whole drama actuallie quite nice leh..its veri funnie..i like it alot..most imptly is bcoz this show got zheng yuan chang..haha..oops.=p

now in sch com lab again..haha..i tink every wed i will say the same things..haha..funnie sia..oops.

anyway 2dae had the two tests sia..1st the comm skills..it was ok lah..at least i manage to finish the whole thing sia..haha.

then had the intht test..it was bad..very bad sia..haiz..i duno how to do the 2 short answer qns loh..its like i didnt study lect four notes..then suay suay both come frm the lect four 1..sian loh.

have not study intht yet..e last time studyin it was juz now with e usual grp..i was tryin veri hard to think wat to do for comm skills..feeling so stressful now..hope that e paper is easy sia.

anyway had my ever 1st test since i in tp..haha.e bcs excel test was ok..i know how 2 do the formula..but i dun reallie know how to format it..haha..but still can pass lah..i suppose..haha.

i did this during e intht tut last week..its like crossword joined with 1k04 peeps names..wasnt veri clear here..haha.

stressed n sian-ed.

im trying to remember the things for the excel..i had forgotten the functions n etc le..sian loh..n tml got excel test..stressed..then still need to do the bcs tutorial. somemore wed got the comm skills the essay the writing then also the intht the test..all havent do n study. the comm skills need to write 600 words sia..omg..i scare i will fail comm skills..then nxt the intht sill havent study yet..tml got a lot of thing need to do..haiz.

aniwae ysd went to silas hse to do proj..did half of the orgbeh..then most of the time we r playin..haha..played tai-di n etc lah.

oh ya..ysd nite i was coughin like hell..then made me cant slp..in e end i only slept for 4 hr++ liddat..this morning i was very tired loh..haha.

i hardly can speak now.=(


aniwae i veri guai loh..i went thru excel work juz now..did the mock paper..then i realise i forgot a lot of the things n some dun even know lah..sianed..n we will haf the xcel test nxt wk..sian loh..wonder if its open bk..haha.

some of e pics with 1k04 peeps.
im so random sia..haha.


after the water fight we had on the lrm orientation day.




took with kelly=)



with the gurls.


me n shirley!



and with cindy!=)









with manu n kelly.

ooh..blogger is back to normal le..haha.

anyway 2dae had e ccn day thingy..i duno izzit consider a success or nt..well..we still earned some money..bout 20+..i nt veri sure..but 1 thing im sure is that i lost voice now..due to the shouting i made durin ccn..i shouted a lot..but like no1 can heard me leh..sad sia..haha.

then during mid of the thing..our class had to go for the comm skills lesson..but in grps..its juz a short lesson sia..real short..she gave us hint wat will b e qns..it would b related to discrminalise (did i spell it correct?) de..anyway till now i still got no idea wat to write lah..its seemed so difficult!..600 words essay..sian-ed.

this wkend i gona complete a lot of thing leh..i wan study bcs doin e excel as well..then research on the comm skills essay thingy..n also study intht if possible loh..wah!!..alot of things waiting sia..stress! i tink i shall rest 1st for 2dae..dam tired sia..goin to start tml..yes..im goin to b hardworking girl frm tml onwards.

hey im in sch's lab again..using the com 2 kill time..sian loh..every wed muz wait so long for cca 2 start..that weilin lah..end so late sia..i had 2 tink of wat to do to kill time..hmm..haha.

anyway lesson are still as bad..haiz..n during the lect juz now im veri blank lah..n when e guys went to throw the pen on cindy i was there like staring n didnt warn her..i feel so sry..i was juz too blank..didnt react fast enough..so sry to cindy.

oh ya..the class is goin 2 sell food durin the ccn day..n 1 of it is cookies..but then till now..havent reallie decided on the type of cookies we goin 2 make..n goin 2 try mine..but its like i veri long didnt make le..hope its still edible.haha.

things are happening again
its always happening every year
with different ppl
i reallie hate this kind of thing
sometimes it make me hate e world too
=(

a lot things happened recently..but shall nt elaborate on those..haiz.

2dae was a dam long day loh..with 6hr straight of lesson..as usual..bcs lab was quite bored..n i wasnt reallie payin much attention to the lesson..then had e miroecon lect..e lecturer was veri fierce loh..but she teach until quite effective loh..at least i can understand some of it..this is e 1st lec that i reallie understand..haha..then e bcs lect..watch the video..it was quite scary loh..sep the last part when e girl started to scream..i goosebumps sia.

oh ya..i met yi ning 2dae in tp..didnt noe she came tp loh..i was so suprised..haha..tok to her for a very short while..so long didnt see her le loh..haha..frm her i den also know jillian in tp also..muz find 1 day to go see her sia..haha.

now veri stress loh..exams coming up in 2 or 3 wks time..but i still seems to b in holiday moog liddat loh..then projects are also coming up..stress sia..n i got a lot of things wan 2 fa xie..but cant find ppl 2 do so..haiz..wat to do.

2dae went to celebrate mother's day..both father's n mother's side 1..morning had 2 wake up quite early lah to go my ahma's hse..there so re nao..haha..ate a lot of things..veri full n e food was quite nice..then also had the cake..chocolate 1..nt bad lah..haha..then after that play with my dear dear cute cute cousins..haha..then we left..after some hrs of stonin at home..we went to orchid club there 2 celebrate mothers' day with my grandma.

it was 1st time i went there..n had the mothers' day dinner..e host was very funny..e food was nice too..ate a lot..im so full now..haha.

daddy and mummy's cartoon drawing..so cute sia..haha.

my cousin is so crearive sia..haha..flower-ing eyes..haha.

some sourvenior i supposed..there is e white n orange fake flower..veri nice..n for e whole dinner i had been playin with e flower..haha.

ysd went 2 celebrate manu's bdae along with her classmates at orchard de swensons..haha..oh ya..we did not give manu present..hope she would not mind.

before that in sch went for the lrmig interview..its was like bad..i suppose..wadeva..anyway after that we--cindy shirley brandon silas raphael me--waited for manu for the whole interview 2 end then we go orchard..before that we went 2 eat instant noodles at cheers coz we r too poor 2 afford eatin at swenson=((.

anyway it was fun lah..e guys sang their 'sia lah' songs..but it was quite nice leh..n veri funny..real funny..haha..after that raphael started mixing mangotea chillisauce ketcup salt pepper and etc..we all had try it..it was weird..haha..then we also played some games..the bottle 1..e bang bang bang 1..then the link 1..sian loh..i duno..*sob sob*..i muz find out..hmph~..but duno how long i will take..that time huilin's open close i use bout 1 wk sia..sian..i so stupid=(.

anyway in sch ysd..shirley n cindy like quite pissed..gurls dun be okays?=)))

it was so weird
i wouldnt dare to start anything
i feels terrible
im so extra
gap
huge gap.

came back frm co prac juz now..dam tired sia..anyway the prac was very ok..we juz prac on our own..quite relaxing lah..haha.

anyway juz now when goin home that time..my face is peeling mah..so i haf been tryin 2 peel e skin out all e way thruout e bus journey..n then also when i was walkin back home that time..till now im still peeling too..but its like can never finish peeling 1 leh..haha..and also hor..my face now quite pain frm all the peeling..esp nose there..haha.

now im using the com in tp to blog..haha..yea..now waiting for the e co prac to start sia..bored..i still have 2hrs to kill..luckily my dear frens are pei-ing me..my dear cindy n shirley..haha..they r so nice!!..anyway its like so qiao..wore the same colour shirts as cindy for the past 3 days sia..haha..she copy me..oops..hehe.

still got 2hrs to go!!!

normally on bus i will get the seats on the right side of the bus. duno why. perharps its a habit le. anyway today just duno why i had choosen to sit at the left side. the moment i sat down i started emo-ing. mayb because recently i have been thinking of some stupid things again lah. and also change my opinion on a lot of things.
its like i may seem to be quite happy but in fact im not really. i duno why. but its just happen to be so. im hoping for a few things to happen. im waiting. but those things juz seem to be never cominig.

my back dam pain sia..feel likd shouting screaming n everything lah..now my back is like still dam red..n now i cant reallie move lah..the whole stretch of my back ache sia..n my sis sae its like goin 2 grow blisters..i hope dun lah..haiz..pain warm hot..arghhhhh...

aniwae ysd went sentosa with my class ppl..suppose to b a class outing lah..but nt a lot ppl went..got cindy shirley huilin gina yolande silas max brandon raphael edwin naz..hope i didnt miss out any1..we started playin volleyball 1st then captain's ball then every1 get wet..after that we changed 2 another beach..e water there is so much cleaner sia..at there we played zhong ji mi ma..n forfeit is truth or dare..then halfway thru shirley lost her ring then we all started findin her ring..looked in the water in the sand but still cant find it..luckily her bf was ok sia..haha..then after that we went bath b4 we go 2 marina bay there 2 eat steamboat..we reached there quite late sia..went 2 meet shermaine n linda..then went makan!!..e food was ok..didnt eat a lot..i was too tired lah..then im so sry i went off earlier..but they r kind..all wait for cab with me..im so touched..haha..when reached home my sis said im glowing red lah..so funny lah..but also veri pain sia tio sunburnt sia.PAIN!!

anyway 2dae had the co briefing..then had the dazu prac..was ok lah..juz that my finger quite pain sia..n also my burnt part dam pain sia..oh ya met some1 on e bus..say hi 2 him..but he's like dao me liddat loh..waliew..i so angry lah..thought he wat lah..haiz..duno y i so pissed sia..but i dam angry lah..n now esp with my back n shoulder burnt like hell..n pain like hell...dam pissed sia.

PAIN PAIN!!