my blog is dying off. as well as me

anyway wed after sectionals which ended like ard 10 took cab back home.
and the uncle is like weird?
told me bout lots of random things like history of something, bout the exciting election, bout ppl being shot and etc. HAHA.
weird n random stuff. haha.

then today had the ssm which means i woke up at 5am again. haha.
anyway ssm today is rather fun. with the opening of wine bottle.
i suppose the teacher is tryin to say something funny to me, but i really dun get wat he meant. but when comes to the part of carrying the plates.
its SUPER TIRING AND PAIN! my fingers and left arm hurts. not my pinky finger. diff frm others?

and we today ended early.woosh.
meet up with shirley along with cindy and we makan @buspark. and most of the time we were talkin bout ssm? haha. then after goin to put my things. went for leadership lect. then co prac again. haha.

off to slp! TIRED!





when motivation no longer works,
when everything changes,
when good things disappear,
when bad things happening,
when one is down,
one is dying.

i seriously tink this photo is very funny!
haha. mine is the most distorted.


anyway lunch with family @ marina sq. hehe. cool!

while on the car, camwhore with my sis


the normal ones.



then the spastic ones. HAHA.


my long lost tou pai skill. hehe=p


then juz very randomly, we went to get 2 dogs frm my father's fren. omg duno how will it be le. haha.



anyway after went to TM to meet weilin n shenglong. walk ard n then buy some things. after that was slacking thru out.

we were like at some void deck n playground then we play CO songs which i tink are quite loud. HAHA.


SL with his sexy post. hehe.


the 2 kids at playground.


with weilin.


the 3 of us.

all the phots are quite dark. HAHA.



anyway i now then realise cchms sch song is only 1min long. so short. then sl say something which is quite logical. "coz there is only 64 words in the song"
HAHA.

miss online till late every night. oops=x

had 2 days with lesson startin in the morning. almost late for leadership tut in the morning on wed. tut was alright but juz that there are lots of things to do. made 1 new fren. HAHA. then i had 5hrs break b4 the nxt lesson start.

met up with shirley for a while then was down to do some co things till the nxt lect start. the lecturer is always smiling de. haha. anyway after that was the co prac till quite late. also duno why.

on the way back to bus stop, saw this guy who is so macho arh with big chest. make me jing shen for a moment. HAHA. but not my type. HEHE.=p



then this morning woke up at like 5.30AM???!!!
juz to prepare for the ssm. pack properly everything the previous night and in the end i still miss out something. HAHA.

anyway SSM is seriously tiring, though quite interesting. we carry bottles and bricks ard. HAHA.
SUPER TIRING NOW!




两个陌生的人，
短暂地交际过后，
却选择各走各路，
回到当初彼此互不认识的时候.

im getting very very very lazy to blog recently. oops=x
(came to blog now becoz i cant log in maple. hehe)


anyway fri was meetingin the noon, then went to serangoon. along with weilin clement n zihao.
we went chomp chomp aftermath. food! haha. but think i will prefer 85 bah. hehe. =x


then sat! woke up early morning n went to my ahma's hse to celebrate my grandfather's bdae. woohoo~.


me and my cousin. zhenghao is so cute!! haha.


wanjing with xiangrou.


grandfather with cousins!

hopefully i can get the other photos frm my aunt soon. hehe.

after that went to meet weilin engchun n yuren at bugis. we went makan n walk ard. then say bye bye to yuren. the rest of us cont walking ard n eng bought the hoodie which we saw it last time. haha.

then now bye bye to weilin. then me n eng went walk ard marina sq. after that went bedok to find weilin. wanted to watch movie @ princess but end up no slot. so went to makan n talk. haha. interesting convo! HAHA.

that day i seriously laugh till nobody business. haha. TOO FUNNY!



SUNDAY is the flyer performance. and cheryl came to see us! thnx girl! haha.



it was alright. there is buffet for us. but sad that we cant get in the flyer itself.

after the perf, a grp of us wanted to take the jumping shot and we tried a lot of times. seriously a lot! haha.


the most successful de. haha.


i duno these shots are before or after we jump. HAHA.



wanling and i, then me n trish.


us! haha.

all photos credit to WANLING once again! haha.


after the perf, we end up reaching TP at ard 12. then finish everything ard 12 plus. took cab back with crystal trish n jianzong. and the driver like cheat us $$. he went one bog round? duno lah. end up reach home at ard 1am. HAHA.

this morning i slp till i very shiok coz only have to go for lect at 5pm. HAHA. =p







i still find no motivation yet.

MONDAY was combined prac.


with the plucked strings ppl!! haha.

then was usual dinner with co ppl. and the talk we had was super funny! haha. laugh till my cheek seriously ache. only can say poor wanling. haha.



then TUESDAY was out with jordon n weilin to get the prizes. before that was dinner at mos burger where we mainly talk bout maple. HAHA. all maple talks!



WEDNESDAY was so fruitful. haha. did a lot of things.

first went to meet up with carmen and went to took the typhoid jab. the doc bluff ppl de. he say no side effect and not pain. true enough that it wasnt pain at first, but it got worst and my arms were numb and pain for the whole day. hmmm..

anyway after that went to collect the SSM uniform at some ulu place. haha. n i reallie thnx carmen for waiting with me for trish n wanling. and thnx gal for the card too! loves.=)

then meetin up with trish n wanling, we went town and walk shop ard. then lunch/dinner at pepperlunch. NICE. with the chats. hehe. more walking ard then was bus-ed back to TP.

went to claim $$ and then was sectional. oh ya! wen hui brought us ice-cream with diff flavours and i really love the cococnut de. HAHA.

think my this wed is like so long like this. haha.



finally is THURSDAY, which is CO outing. haha.
i was late. oops. super sorry. haha.

then proceed on with the game and shall not talk bout it bah.
juz some tiny things happen which werent really gd. but its over le so nvm! haha.

after cleaning ourselve up, was dinner @ food republic. then candy empire. bought the jellybeans! hehe.

photos below. credit to wanling.


the grp photo.


with madeline


haha clement.


with wanling.


the grp which won. HAHA.


us!




timetable's out. after seeing it a few times, i think its alright lah, but dont really like it though.
anyone is in 05? till now i only know 1 person. haha.


sch is startin soon.OH SIAN!.

back frm sentosa! woohoo~

anyway morning met up with cheryl like finally!! havent seen her for like 9873624354yrs le. HAHA. we went kallan leisure n had KLUNCH. hehe. SHIOKness.

towards the last hr of singing, we juz let the music run while we chitchat. haha. after which we went to kallang mrt n she accompany to wait for weilin who was late again. haiz.

anyway met up with weilin after that n went sentosa walk walk. then was chatting time with her during dinner. we chat till forget the time. oops. HAHA.




so many things to do, yet holiday is ending soon.
OH MAN!

TREE, LEAF, WIND

Part3: Wind

Wind

====

Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

morning was co prac 1st at TP. after which went down to city hall to meet SHIRLEY LOVER! haha.




went to return the F1 things and get our pay cheque. YAY!
but those in pm shift are paid $30 more than am shift. SIAN!
but nvm. hehe.

then lunch at LJS. after that we headed to bugis and i bought lots of things. $$ gone le. but fun lah! haha.

then to far east to walk walk. and we went to have dessert at one shop which is very very nice! haha. then walk a bit more and back home.


caught up with this girl and had chats as usual. love her lots! haha.

TREE, LEAF, WIND

Part2: Leaf

Leaf

===

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

nxt wk is the last wk of holis le! OH MAN!
time passes very fast!

anyway MONDAY was juz co prac and nothing else. hehe.
thnx weilin for the party animal! hehe.

and TUESDAY was pure slacking. home all day long watching movies and mapling. hehe.

then WEDNESDAY met up with madeline n went to hand in our timesheet. n it was raining heavily ard the town area. luckily madeline had the umbrella. haha. then was short walk ard and bus-ed down to TP for sectionals.

THURSDAY went to TP (again. haha) to find jordon n we went to buy the strings like finally! haha. bought the strings and we went to popular and found out something cool. haha. the name of the world in maple story come frm the name of the stars. HAHA. interesting.

after say byebye, went to meet madeline weilin n engchun at cine for movie. watch the house bunny which was not bad. HAHA. dinner and then walk ard a bit. then back home.

engchun looks like he is fading off. HAHA.


FRIDAY meet up with JELLYBEAN and we went ikea! haha. walked ard then we took bus to astons @ katong to makan. we 2 person order 3 meals and the ppl there are like shock to see it? haha. and we finish it all up. HAHA.

then we walk to parkway to shop shop walk walk. and i bought a top. hehe. had icecream befroe we left.

oh n there is pasar malam at parkway there. wanted to buy lots of food but it seems like they juz set up so no much food was up yet so dint buy much. hehe.




holis are ending, and we have to do so much thing for SSM. sian de loh. actuallie only need to buy shoe and do some injection. but really lazy. hehe.



changed.

TREE, LEAF, WIND

Part1: Tree

Tree

===

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

2 day work at the career discovery @ suntec convention centre is over! haha.
pathetic pay but nice working environment. HAHA.

i seriously love my first day work. very slacking. juz check IC and give sticker. other than that is stoning at the seat. haha thats all i did for the 1st day. oh ya. they gave the partimer mac for dinner and others had rice. i found it quite funny! haha.

second day did a diff thing. (think its becoz they realise im too free le bah). im asked to do data entry in a room. haha. there is a great big pile of data which we had to key in. its like OMG! it was quite boring lah, facing the com all day long. this time for dinner, they ask if we will like to have mac or rice. haha.


overall my job still quite ok lah. YAYness! haha.


hope my sis will be alright. the doctor say her leg may need operation. hope everything will be alright again for her.

ysd was quite a random decision to have dinner at bedok with weilin n engchun. had western.

then was a even more random act. we went to watch connected at PRINCESS. LOL! the movie itself was quite ok. but the cinema there is like errrrr..but the gd thing is that we can juz sit anyway (coz there arent many ppl there) and juz sit however we like. haha.

after that went to walk ard then sat at mac and chat. interesting and funny chats. HAHA.


going off for work soon. at suntec again?
haha.

A sweet short story

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, "Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what h appens, you will never let my hand go." Hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours.

ysd was working at suntec conventional centre there as usher for 2 concerts.
HAHA.
overall its quite fun, not too tiring n can work with frens. hehe.

shall not elaborate much.

but im a bit richer! hehe.

took a number of photos. and i think i juz post up all that i took.


madeline weilin n lihyee


weilin me n madeline


weilin n me.


the chop thing all over.




doesnt look like the poster at all!


was tryin to take with crystal only, but apparently the bg has other ppl joinin in. HAHA.














took a lot of photos with madeline as we were too bored outside the hall as the concert was goin on inside. haha.


me n madeline




again.











i think i have good photography skills. hehe.



pauline n weilin


with weilin




me n pauline.



done with all photos.
like finally. HAHA.


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if things are left undone, just leave it undone
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