"im like a loanshark, forever chasing people for all the things.
some people might hate me,
but if i don't chase for it, i can't survive, just like how loansharks need the $$.
i need to survive too.
you know how much i wish that i can don't do these things. (as much as you can think of)

its like why am i adding these things to my burden, when i can choose to be free now.
i think im so dumb, to bring this upon myself, and still need to see people's face to work."
hating my life for now.