i hope that the bad aura is either gone for the good, if not be with me,
BUT FOR SURE NOT TO MY DEAREST FRIENDS!

GRATS TO CCHMSCO FOR GETTING GWH FOR THIS SYF!
it have been like years ago that we aimed for this GWH.
n the juniors this yr manage to achieve it. super YAYness.

today is jordon's bday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!!! hehe.

weekend is always of love.

anyway fri was out with CINDY n SHIRLEY. dinner n walk ard. catch up.


then i left 1st to meet jor weilin n eng for moive.
i was suay again. cant catch any cab, n in the end i was late for the movie.
i still full of the suay aura. can someone help me remove my suay-ness.



then sat, was classroom session @ tp, then went to cut my hair like finally, wanted to do so for like 1 wk or so.
then to pasir ris to meet mad eng n jor to sharon's hse for lunch.
after that was to ehub (as usual).
every week will sure go at least once. HAHA.


then sun (today), meet weilin for lunch 1st, then sharon came.
we went to buy cake for jor.
then to chaichee cc for k session.
eng came later.
then finally jor came.
he was surprise to see me n weilin i suppose.
coz we sort of lied to him that we cannot make it today. HAHA.
sing sing eat cake then off to have dinner.


weekend juz over like so fast again.
i always dread going to work eveytime.
cant wait for SIP to end sooooon.


anyway new blogskin as made by shirley. THNX GIRL!
I LOVE THIS SKIN! haha.

few photos:



that time when sending pauline n wanling off. quite long ago? HAHA.


my 2 dearest friends who came down for the concert. LOVE THEM LOTS!!!


2 photos only, HAHA. lazy to upload the rest n others.


anyway mon during work called the kfc delivery for lunch, we ordered the family feast to share among the 4 of us n we concluded that its not worth the money. aft work was down to TP for meeting then dinner opp tp.

got the bag n card frm co peeps. love the bag n card. THNX!




today aft work was meet up with KOH YEE TENG! YAYness! dinner was super nice food at the northpoint there but i forget whats the place call. eat till super super full. had a very nice nice chat with this girl. THNX for listening to all the complaints n etc. hehe.


LOVES!



oh i met a weird man at the bus stop last night. scary sia. haha.
people/things changed. i don't recognise them.
if not, maybe im the one who change, thus everything seem to be changed to me.
i dont want to go guess anymore, since nobody cares too. im not needed.

y cant i choose the way of life that i want to lead. if given choice, i will choose to be happy, with great friends' accompany always. No guessing, misery, complication, alone, is needed. who don't want a perfect life. but luck not with me always.

this long weekend seems super long. n i like it! haha.
totally no feel for working already.

fri was spent with mad jor eng for movie.

sat was with weilin lst for lunch. had astons then was to library where we start chatting gossiping n etc. so super long never chat/talk/gossip with her. BUSY WOMAN ARH! haha.
then was to simei there to meet sharon jor n eng. accompanied sharon to buy erhu, n she bought one! haha. then to eastpoint for dinner.

sun was meet up with sharon jor n eng for singing at chaichee cc. 1st time there, it was quite ok, cheap deal. $8/person. then was dinner at bedok central there. eat tillk super full!! haha.



weekend spent quite fruitfully. NICE. totally no mood for work. but tml is work again! SIAN!


i like kinder joy! haha. thnx shirley for the kinder joy that time, which she say is for me to get rid of my suayness. HEHE.


work start tml again. 110 days more.

SUAY SUAY SUAY SUAY!
my sandal snapped on me ysd while knocked off frm work, luckily i have my slipper with me.
today i juz lost my ezlink card.
SERIOUSLY i never have this suay before which till now for few wks. n is consecutively having suay things happen.
im so so so sad, so pls dont suan me anymore.



anyway thurs aft work was dating with SHIRLEY. all the gossips n chat bout company n all were really great. n we confessed. its really so good to have her ard. i told her that, luckily i got her in poly, if not duno how poly life will be. =)


today public holiday. IT WAS SO COOOOOL! haha. catch a movie with mad jor n eng. watch KNOWING. quite ok lah, except for all the disater scenes, super scary. then dinner, acarde n etc at ehub.



ever since aft concert, i never have good things happen to me, instead i have so much suay things happen on me. few fall downs, mistakes at work, super heavy workload, scoldings, sadness, snapped shoes, lost ezlink. WAH!

seriously i have been trying not to think bout those, but like one thing happens aft the other, dun wan to think also tough.
this year is seriously a super bad year up to now.
if i go on, will b more n more bad things i will blog.
END.

day off peacefully i could say. all the pace for work is quite good.

one conclusion/thot for today.
its not good to be in a dept where all 3 people will call you do work, then duno which to priotise, troubles start.
i wonder what will happen when we move office, will it b chaotic?



period of falling, suan-ing & emo-ing
is here. i dun like it. i can feel the insecure inside.
nobody cares.
i need to cry out to vent out.


anyway chat with CARMEN online juz now. I MISS HER LOTS! haha.

no longer same person.
camp tml. wow.

suay suay suay suay. almost fall again, but other than that still quite ok. work was over peacefully except for juz 1 thing. HAIZ.

anyway aft work was to meet co ppl for dinner at 85. walked to 85 frm bedok mrt station, was super far but thnx for the accompany, but not all the suan-ing.

then dinner was more suan-ing. duno y today so many suans. HAHA.


havent had enough slp all along. i cant wait for no work days.

fell down again! duno how long since i last fall. n i fall twice today. both at the CDC. super suay!

was late for the etrial so walk faster n suay i fell down on my knee. scratches on palm which is quite pain. then reach home then realise my leg got scratches at 2 different places. luckily i wore jeans, if not i may have the same scar on my both leg. my whole right limb very pain.

then cab down to SCC to work. was slacking as usual. nothing to do. sit n stare n promote the sales of range card. haha all the way till end. then was dinner with mark n kelvin at causeway point. a very unfamilar place. haha.

bused back home, n the journey was quite long. slp the way back is shiok. HAHA.


tml work again! OH MAN. i got 1 day leave to claim muahahahaha, when shld i have it? hehe.

i juz feel like blogging but i duno what to blog.

in point form again bah.
- im like super suay for this wk. REALLY SUAY. ask those close friends n they agree too.
- im halfway thru the consecutive 12 days of work n im super tired.
- im like hurt everywhere.
- workload still super heavy, thus miss transport aft knocked off. hai dao others, sry guys.
- took buggy out twice this wk. i quite like it. HEHE!
- have been eating n eating. DEAD.
- carnival today was the slackest day i ever go thru for this wk. sit n stare. the managers all ask me dun slp when my eyes are still open? one even ask me go to his office to rest if want. -.-
- tml carnival again. TIRED.


THE END

mon till today (wed) im quite suay. work all day long except for tues which im quite free in the morning. work till the very last min for this 2 days, in the end make the others miss the transport for today when knock off. (sry guys). but luckily we have the buggy out to the gate.

work is getting super busy. i got no time to slack to use the com during work most of the time now. now my work is like piling up, many things waiting for me to complete them. anyway learnt something new today bout printing of cards. but she do it too fast n i dun have the time to take note or rmb so many steps! i feel so arghhh.

oh! my manager treat me eat fries this time round. HAHA! shiok. at this rate im eating, sure gain duno how many kilos aft the end of SIP, HAHA.
if this is the way you going to communicate with me,
its not working, u dumb dumb.
i tink i need to learn to be independent, if not i will suffer. woohooo~



time at work passes very fast due to workload. n i now think 24hr a day is seriously not enough. haha.

DAMN!

im so tired now, tired of all the naggings, all scoldings, all the distance, all the drips n drops.
im so so so tired of life.
let me be the bad one,
no im already the bad one in your eye.

im so away from everything.
why good things dont last?
why bad things always happen?
why just dont have anyone understand?
why is it everything once so good all turn so bad?
why longing for something is so tiring?
why is it like this?

i just need someone to be with me.
uncertainities, illusions, fakeness.
its way too complicated.


way too tired. cry will help a bit.

muz post as much as i can before the working days start again.

most likely we r to go back to work on the sat n sun becoz there is a carnival. this means that frm tml onwards, we will be working 12 days consecutive. THATS BAD!



anyway sat aft work was back home to catch my slp, always no enough sleep de. then to airport to meet weilin madeline n jordon for dinner then to send wan ling n pauline off to beijing.



today meet up with cheryl to register her bbt, then we went to ehub for kbox, aft which teng came to join us. super duper long no sing le. SHIOK. then went TM, then coz super tired, we went off le.
thoat a bit pain. haha. tummy also.

not that i want to think about it
its the things that are lying in front prove the truth to it.
tml dinner with cindy n shirley aft work at fish n co xpress!!

FRI night was finally the concert.

seriously i cant feel the mood of having concert until our sectional songs. woosh.
good or bad. it marks the end of the endless prac for this AY. thumbs up to all! HAHA.

juz this one short day, many things had happened. not that good of course. shall not elaborate on it. its over le anyway.
DAMN i felt quite pissed and guilty at that time,
i always screwed things up. USELESS ME.
THNX to those who came to support us.
Cheryl n her bf, Yeeteng n her friend, Kelvin, Shenglong n Chun poh, Jessie, Wen Jia n fren.
really appreciate. HEHE.

back home, drained!
i dun wan to be negative
but i juz cant help when the feeling comes.
its hard to control. im not happy i guess.
another chapter.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SHARON!!!=)


finally have the time to blog!

everyday when reach home will juz sleep, too busy n tired le. the daily routine (for almost everyday) is after work then to tp. super tired.

these 2 days de prac very hiong i feel. till
concert tml le or rather later, but juz cant feel the mood for concert. i will juz WOW, tml is the concert. HAHA. ALL THE BEST TO US! HOPE TML WILL SHUN SHUN LI LI BAH.

some of the random things during these few days:
- had prata with kelvin randonly opp TP one day before we go for our prac/training as a manager brought us to tp after work, thus we reach earlier than usual. the cheese prata is nice!
- kelvin cursed that i will die 21 days after his.
- witness some quarterly draw during work. cool technology?
- lunch catered at work place was quite nice these 2 days.
- enjoy the lunch breack time during work becoz of shirley mark n kelvin, but dun enjoy when working.
- im still doing a lot of admin things.
- im suppose to plan an outing with the others for some staff
- sweet is a muz muz for everyday.
- my manager gave me half of her ice kachiang during work. YAY!
- have to work on SAT again.
- i get to know more uncles n aunties.

cant tink of other things le.


oh someone pls keep remind me to do my e-journal. i got a feeling that i will forget. HAHA.
yay no work tml.
im getting further away,
detached from it, feel so unfamilar now.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR CONCERT! =)

very long didnt post any photos le. so some photo below.


shirley lover n me!!


in buggy!


teng me n cheryl.


thats all. havent taken much recently.




today work was quite a lot b4 lunch, but aft lunch was quite slack. chat with colleuge and see how does the printing of payslip works.

concert on the coming fri, n i really didnt know it until cheryl was saying about fri. then i was like,"HUH? What fri?" OOPS!
tell me what you thinking
dun give me hopes
3 more days to concert~

blog while im working again.

sat was off to work again. but juz till 1pm. aft that was to TP was prac as usual. that day had prac till very late. then KFC for dinner. the sky was in a weird colour but there is also rainbow! very long didnt see 1 le.
that day when reach home, slp almost immediately till the nxt morning 1pm. SHIOK!

sun was meet up with cheryl 1st then teng n went bugis. had swensen's with them. then meet with weilin n eng to shop ard. i bought tops n belt. HAPPY. hehe. then we walked to marina sq. at there we saw this person who we suspect he travel thru the time machine. stalked him for a while. HAHA.

then jordon joined us and we went to eat at the carl's jr and we started talking bout gunbound. then as we went home. we d/l it and start playing it. I MISS GB. hehe. hey all start playing GB too. HAHA!

today working was doin work all along until now then got time to slack. hehe. doin the same things all along. LALALA ~

BORED N SIAN!
was it me or was it you?

ended my day juz like previous days. lots of things to do but all OTOT. n that kelvin is like so free, keep coming to my office. he is really super free. go see his blog n u will understand. HAHA.

after work, the 4 of us (shirley kelvin n mark) for the 1st time took train tgt. HAHA random. anway was down to bugis to meet the co ppl. but b4 that saw CINDY! hehe.

went to eat steamboat with the CO ppl. eat till super full. then back home. was super tired. but aft a bathe, i feel so energetic for a moment. HAHA.

tml still got work. WAH SIAN!


mistake is inevitable, but once mistake is made, the impression of u may change, things change too. had been making mistakes lately like during work. (not that serious, but still i have made it twice). it affects one's attitude, mood & etc. things are going real bad recently. totally bad!
something said, which pull things to the worst.
changed has made me sad.

BUY TIXS!

ysd seems to b a very long day.



ysd during work was rather relax, then listen to some of the things bout SCC. it was quite interesting. know better bout here. after that hearing, work starts coming in like non-stop. work all the way till on the dot. SIAN!



aft work was bus-ed down with kelvin. kelvin is very nice arh, he pei me go see how to go to pasir ris frm katib. n in the end we walked past 4 bus stop to get to the bus stop which bring us to tampines. hah.



to tp but did not manage to prac. bad?



so not wanting to take up that, but as it goes, get fustrated & tired in insisting my own answer, so just gave up and let it be. and i broke my words! rather sad but shall see how it will go.



CO TIXS ON SALES!

day 3 ended. total slackness aft i finish my work. did everything OTOT. no one in the office, so juz on the com and do all the things. duno hows the nxt 2 day will b like. i somehow sense that it will b chaotic for me? lets see if my instinct is accurate.

back to tp for CO prac. totally lost! too not in touch with it, juz feel it.
i feel so separate from them.
all to blame ___.
dun feel like doing all the things related to it.
TIRED! (think im always typing the same things out)


BUY CO TIXS!

current so love this song.

xiang ting de hua - jeff chang and shi xin hui

who got this song can send me. HEHE.

currently rotting in the office alone.
cold
lalalala~

2nd day of work. do all the filings at OTOT. then quite slacking towards the end. kelvin came over n we chat n stalk ppl's blog. HEHE. i still dun like the part on answering the phone calls.
counting down to 136 days to end of SIP. HAHA.

after work was down to yishun with shirley mark n kelvin to have dinner. ate LJS then go walk ard a while n then back home.

chat with carmen juz now thru webcam. TAKE CARE!! =)

tired! hope i can slp b4 11. HEHE.
missing out things is part of the reason,
i dun like the situation now


COME WATCH CO CONCERT!!!
(think im going to include this for every of my post)

1st day of SIP, couldnt say its very gd or bad.
same company as shirley, kelvin n mark, but we are all in diff depts.
juz wasnt really happy that im in HR/Admin dept. HAIZ!

lunch provide was quite nice, n there is dessert too. HAHA. then back to office doin all the things that im told to do.

hope tml is a better day.

my leg is so hurt by the heels. will not wear it anymore le.
so sian of SIP le like juz aft 1 day. MORE HAIZ!



CARMEN IS OFF TO CHINA LE! MISS HER!!!!!




PLS HELP TO BUY THE CO CONCERT TIXS!




so tired now.

photos frm ysd.


a grp photo! hehe.




SIP starting tml. im dreading it now.



TPCO concert on the 27 March, 8pm @ Victoria Concert Hall.
people interesting in coming for this concert, pls contact me!
THNX!!!!=)

SIP starting on the coming monday, n i not really looking forward for now.
juz dun wan my holi to end so soon!

anyway fri was down to watch the disney on ice! it was nice n interesting n very cute too! haha. thnx for the tixs!


sat was the usual prac, then was down to city hall to meet my pri sch classmates. only few turn up.
vanessa yining cheryl yeeteng n matthew. thai express then hagendaz. nice catch up with them.
is like so cool. after so long, we had a pri sch gathering. HAHA.
some photos taken, shall post it when i got the photos.



2 more days to SIP.

BACK TO COM!

CO TRAINING CAMP!
n i havent been using com for like 3 days? haha.

these 4 days (3days of camp n today's prac) had been having practices practices and more pratices.
painful fingers.
n duno is it overstrain, my right wrist hurts some time when playing.


camp was rather fun, and it really do help bah. had the station games, me n madeline are quite bored with the waiting n we camwhore to kill time.


camwhore with mad(huo xin ren aka marsian)







john's scary fingers.





after the station games n debrief, supper n wash-up, finally able to slp at ard 4plus am. n i cant really slp in sports complex, keep waking up. then nxt morning woke up at ard 7plus.


then the nxt day had the music competition. n our plucked strings section won!!! YAYness!!!!!!!
haha.





after the camp, dinner @ kfc then back home.
was super suay.
I LOST ONE SIDE OF MY CONTACT LENS!
sian n i was tired, so cant got the will to go find it.
after bathing then i slp all the way frm 8pm to the nxt morning 11 plus am. SUPER SHIOK! haha=p


anyway meetup with my dearest jellybean, CARMEN like finally!!!
meet up at the same door at eunos station then train-ed down to bugis.




had fish n co, n we ate till we super de full. then walk ard, then to our fav dessert place. bought a top! hehe.



had a nice chat with her. thnx for the belated birthday present frm her.


a pinky pillow made by her n a scrapbook done by her too. I SERIOUSLY LOVE IT n very touched by the msg. REALLY THNX LOTS MY DEAR!!!!! =)
TAKE CARE WHILE U R AT CHINA!!!!



then back to tp for prac. consecutive 4 days of prac, n my wrist is hurting more now. i shld stop typing le (nothing much more to say anyway. HAHA)


BTT on the 16 mar, 8pm. HEHE.

i shld eat lesser
CU!

have been getting more n more lazy to blog.

sat had the SIP classroom session. it was nothing much. juz sat there n listen to things. like there are so many things to do for SIP, e-journals, portfoilo (the samples given were all super super thick), but its juz either a pass or fail? HAHA.

then aft that was to CO prac. fei tian is quite nice. hehe. RANDOM! then was dinner at kfc with sharon shuqi n engchun. n we sat in there eat n chat for like ard 2hrs? HAHA.



SUN was out with shirley n cindy to bugis.
1st to library with shirley to borrow bks then met cindy. n town-ed after that.
catchup with the girls were great.



but the weather was super super hot that day which is terrible. HAHA.




pls have more slots for btt. i want the night one!!!!

back to do the co list.

Feeling Blues~

im feeling so not ok.
having this feeling of uncertainty and unsecure.
this is going so bad.

tues was out with weilin to plaza sing. went to buy some things. then yeeteng came to meet us.
had lunch at the manhanttan. the mushroom thingy is very very nice. cant rmb wat is it called.

after that cheryl came to joined us n we bus-ed down to town. walk walk ard. n plan to surprise teng sort of failed? HAHA. but still hope that she like the thing. HEHE.
played pool. super long didnt play le n i still very bad at it. haha.

after that weilin left 1st, then teng cheryl n i went to sushi tei for dinner. HAHA.
chat chat chat, then we talk bout pri sch times. it was really fun then. i miss my pri sch life. HAHA.
lots of memories with the class. captian's ball esp. HAHA.
MISSES LOTS!



gathering with 6/2 soon i hope. hehe.

enjoying my holi now.
when at home, laptop is my best accompany.
with all the facebook and dramas.
link: mysoju
this site has lots of korean, jap, taiwan n hk movies n dramas. hehe.


now my life, cant really rmb what i did on sat, so juz start on sun.

lunch with family at sakura. then to white sands to meet weilin eng n yuren. talk eat there then to arcade with eng, play the long-time-no-play games. HEHE. then meet jordon. then to ehub. then sharon joined us aft her work. played more arcade games then to superdog. where we sit there n chat for very long then weilin n yuren join us back. hehe.


nxt day, mon had the 1st co prac afer the study break. oh btw before that i went to library to borrow book. duno how long didnt step in to library to borrow books to read. HAHA.

OH YA!

HEY PPL, PLS SUPPORT OUR CO ANNUAL CONCERT.
Its on the 27 March 2009. Pls buy the tixs frm me. HEHE.


then tue (today),
meet yuren n eng to register for btt, but i havent choose a date coz i need weekend, but it opens rarely, so i wonder when then can i take my btt. HAHA.

then was down to bedok to meet weilin n mad for astons, then to TP for sectional.
aft sectional was to opp for dinner then to TM. to coffeebean n we sat there, laugh throughout (most of the time lah). super funny things. haha.




SIP coming~
Holi ending~
concert coming~



im contradicting myself.